I have decided...

to LIVE, really live! Despite the fact I had a lapse in judgement and drank too much (jeez, just one time in 11 yrs...but really, really over did it), have been stressed beyond my mental capacity, have fallen off of the gym wagon and am now having re-occurring health challenges...I decided I do want to live, but not just live...really, really LIVE.

I want to be strong, beautiful, healthy, loving, happy (maybe, just maybe, even joyful ;0) I want to finally own & ride a motorcycle (okay..could be unhealthy...but think of all the fresh air!), I want to do some light body building, I want to show my kids what the opposite of my lives with them has been in the health realm...show them true health despite all circumstances & environmental factors. We make choices.

Now I am not the least healthy person in the world by any close race, I just see that I choose to live a mediocre life as far as choices for or against my health. It is all by default and living reactively rather than proactively or responsively.

That said...I am starting my weight loss goals up again. I went from 192 before last summer to 187 at the beginning of the summer, to 176 about a month ago (and it has stuck! thank you weight bearing exercises!). Here I am at 176 and my goal is 166 by the end of the year.

I am ready.